Feelings of Life: Blazing Love and Pain

LEAVE ME
Leave me and let me believe everything I thought about you was true. Leave me and be just as cruel to my heart as the others in the past have been. Leaving me only my tears because you have ripped away my dignity and given me fears…or maybe…I should leave you.
Understand…we can split between the sun and I would forever walk the burning surface to find your heart once more, but I am not sure if this choice will leave my heart tore.
This feeling I have for you…you, the one who realized that a kiss was all that was needed to spread pain into my heart….when you knew what you wanted from the start….don’t make me…fall in love.

LUST
Man, the way she looks catches my eyes reading her like the most interesting books. Increasing my love for life once she enters my mind, wondering how the hell there could be a person so divine. I think she was sent from the heavens above, no matter how corny this sounds, I actually think I’m in love. My guys tell me I’m stupid and that all I’m feeling is lust. Well I’d rather try my hand and see if this chance is a bust. I hope when I approach her, my words flow out so sweet. Damn how I wish I could write down passionate words on a sheet. Read it to her as smooth as I can be…Am I over thinking this situation? I pray she is lusting for me.

LESSON LEARNED
I should have listened to my past, so it could change my future. Now I’m here in a daze, I didn’t think that I would lose you. I know that things change and the heart moves on. I guess my only wish would be, that I could still tag along. I don’t know what I’ll do without you, wont you please come back? The pain that I’m feeling inside is worst than a heart attack. I’m so lost and I can’t find my way. This darkness is crowding my eyes, baby please just stay.
You don’t feel the same, now I see you don’t. You keep trying to pull away, but my feelings won’t. Why is this so hard, somebody please tell me? I want to move on, but I know I can’t happily.
NEVER
They say you can’t rush true love, but damn I wish I could. When I held her in my arms man it felt so good. Now our eyes don’t connect and our words don’t meet. If I could hang my head lower, it would be dragging under my feet. My love for her was so legit. I was willing to fight through hard times but she would rather quit. I’m truly hurt because I put in to much work just to let her go. I wish I could walk around normal but my emotions show. I didn’t ever smile, but she gave me a smirk. I guess the lessons learned will help me when I decide to lurk. My heart feels tied, and I can’t break free. I can’t believe she’s gone. I’m in disbelief.

FREE LOVE
Lifting past the memories of struggle as they drop from my ankles letting the shackles of pain loose as I am set free.
Never forgetting the pain from those memories as they strengthen my mind for the future that has yet to come…
Leave me not happiness for you are what I hope to treasure forever.
Love is the dream dreamt by countless minds,
hoping one day they will wonder into the world with knowledge.
Having another to whisper sweet melodies into awaiting ears or there in a moment’s time to catch a falling tear.
Making endless wishes come true, inspired by fairytales since time had begun…
Older and older as the years go by, shall you stay lonely, I know not I. I’m challenging myself to be more than just a person lost in this world.….

THE WOMEN, WHO IS SHE?
Women are the inspiration to my creativity, the queens of my heart.
Making a way for all humanity, standing together never apart.
I appreciate your beauty,
I appreciate your pain,
I appreciate the struggle, for men to maintain. She is the one who makes me believe in dreams because what I see in her always deceives.
She was never real even though I can touch, figured I should give up as my heart can’t take this much…pain…She…is my pain…
But to her I send my best wishes, I’ll dream again of love and your luscious kisses….

PAIN
How can you love me, and bring me so much pain.
How can you cherish my presence, but drive me insane.
Why are you hurting me, what is there to gain?
Why am I going through this, do I have myself to blame?
Do I need to change, do I need to check myself….
My life is moving in the fastest lane, I’m trying not to wreck myself…
I pray to God he brings peace to me, and keeps me from this painful mentality….

WHY
Why must I constantly be judged for speaking my mind?
Why should I settle myself to believe there is nothing wrong in this world and sit blind?
I refuse to follow the critiques of life stating we should forget the past and believe in the future, when the future is based off of the past before it….
Why subject myself to such ignorance which is that of me living peacefully when others suffer daily…What have you done to make a difference? Living a life just to live is not worth living…

RISE
Rise up from your slumber, peel back crusted eyelids to unveil your soul to the sun’s rays.
Rise so that you can face each second of a minute, every minute of the hour and every hour of the days to come.
Rise as you breathe Mother-Natures breath as it flows through every inch of your body inspiring your mind and encouraging new thoughts….have you risen?

I AM
I am you; I am the countless millions who represent billions of inspired thoughts from the trillions of images seen within each second of each hour.
I am the dreams dreamt by dreamers of the past who realized their prayers had come true on the day of juneteenth.
I am as free as the sun while I am told to stay in the shadows like the moon but never have been so close to the stars which I cannot reach to soon.
I am you, I am you, and I am you over the years, tasting the same tears, conquering the same fears.
I swear we were made in the same image…I am…you…

LIFE
Life moves to its own beat,
travels its own path,
and drags you for a wild ride.
The only way to stay alive is to follow its trail and don’t hide… I feel the pain in my mind, stuck in the darkness. I just want to be able to shine, but man I feel so heartless. I know I have to go on in life without pulling out, but times are hard and I just want to shout. My fingers move gripping the letters of life arranging them to tell the story of my immortality creating a moment in history forever… the future stands still unless we create it….
Listening to the motives that stay largely unspoken, remembering the promises that have been broken. Is it my destiny to go through this world unable to clearly see, or with each step am I getting closer to being free? Focused on the wrong deeds but only wishing to succeed, all I want is a chance in life…well not want, more like a need.

SUCCESSFUL MOTIVATION
I live for the money, saving up from the work, progressing through the ranks, building up my worth. I’m prepared for my future, as I’ve learned from my past. I pray for the good times and hope that they last. Laughs and laughs, moment after moment, no more pain in my head, progression, I’m on it. Successful early on and I’ll never die down. I feel as though I can greatness anywhere I go, even if I’m alone, you would never think so. Survival of the fittest is what I’ve always been taught. I put this statement to good use; I control my destiny, never bought. Willingly taking all the chances that I can, I learn from my mistakes to become a better man. Not knowing what obstacles can come to block my success, I keep moving forward with no time to rest. Motivated early on, and I’ll never die down, I feel as though I am a king, and I own my own crown.

THEY
They told me I can’t do a damn thing. Now tell me do you feel this thick rain, blinding my eyes so I can’t see but I can sense the pain. Have to keep pushing forward because there’s always something in life to gain. It’s a battle within me but who’s going to win this game? I’m just trying to progress everyday but we in hard times. There are so many two face people; didn’t you know they come in all kinds? They are like toys, special edition, happy when you buy it. As soon as they get out the box you wish you never tried it. They are the people, who will always try to hold you down, but I refuse to be held, I fly higher than them and will never touch the ground.

THE INSPIRATION TO MY POETRY

SAUL WILLIAMS…the inspiration to my mind evolving to its purest form. Young and afraid not knowing how to express my feelings without proper guidance…my eyes gazed upon a movie entitled… “SLAM” The story of a young Black American Male named Ray played by Saul Williams who goes through trials and errors while expressing his inner most thoughts through poetry and spoken word….POWERFUL…I thank you Saul for you have forever impacted my life…

Feelings of Life: Blazing Contradictions

LEAVE ME
Leave me and let me believe everything I thought about you was true. Leave me and be just as cruel to my heart as the others in the past have been. Leaving me only my tears because you have ripped away my dignity and given me fears…or maybe…I should leave you.
Understand…we can split between the sun and I would forever walk the burning surface to find your heart once more, but I am not sure if this choice will leave my heart tore.
This feeling I have for you…you, the one who realized that a kiss was all that was needed to spread pain into my heart….when you knew what you wanted from the start….don’t make me…fall in love.

LUST
Man, the way she looks catches my eyes reading her like the most interesting books. Increasing my love for life once she enters my mind, wondering how the hell their could be a person so divine. I think she was sent from the heavens above, no matter how corny this sounds, I actually think I’m in love. My guys tell me I’m stupid and that all I’m feeling is lust. Well I’d rather try my hand and see if this chance is a bust. I hope when I approach her, my words flow out so sweet. Damn how I wish I could write down passionate words on a sheet. Read it to her as smooth as I can be…Am I over thinking this situation? I pray she is lusting for me.

FREE LOVE
Lifting past the memories of struggle as they drop from my ankles letting the shackles of pain loose as I am set free.
Never forgetting the pain from those memories as they strengthen my mind for the future that has yet to come…
Leave me not happiness for you are what I hope to treasure forever.
Love is the dream dreamt by countless minds,
hoping one day they will wonder into the world with knowledge.
Having another to whisper sweet melodies into awaiting ears or there in a moment’s time to catch a falling tear.
Making endless wishes come true, inspired by fairytales since time had begun…
Older and older as the years go by, shall you stay lonely, I know not I. I’m challenging myself to be more than just a person lost in this world.….

THE WOMEN, WHO IS SHE?
Women are the inspiration to my creativity, the queens of my heart.
Making a way for all humanity, standing together never apart.
I appreciate your beauty,
I appreciate your pain,
I appreciate the struggle, for men to maintain. She is the one who makes me believe in dreams because what I see in her always deceives.
She was never real even though I can touch, figured I should give up as my heart can’t take this much…pain…She…is my pain…
But to her I send my best wishes, I’ll dream again of love and your luscious kisses….

PAIN
How can you love me, and bring me so much pain.
How can you cherish my presence, but drive me insane.
Why are you hurting me, what is there to gain?
Why am I going through this, do I have myself to blame?
Do I need to change, do I need to check myself….
My life is moving in the fastest lane, I’m trying not to wreck myself…
I pray to God he brings peace to me, and keeps me from this painful mentality….

WHY
Why must I constantly be judged for speaking my mind?
Why should I settle myself to believe there is nothing wrong in this world and sit blind?
I refuse to follow the critiques of life stating we should forget the past and believe in the future, when the future is based off of the past before it….
Why subject myself to such ignorance which is that of me living peacefully when others suffer daily…What have you done to make a difference? Living a life just to live is not worth living…

RISE
Rise up from your slumber, peel back crusted eyelids to unveil your soul to the sun’s rays.
Rise so that you can face each second of a minute, every minute of the hour and every hour of the days to come.
Rise as you breathe Mother-Natures breath as it flows through every inch of your body inspiring your mind and encouraging new thoughts….have you raised?

I AM
I am you; I am the countless millions who represent billions of inspired thoughts from the trillions of images seen within each second of each hour.
I am the dreams dreamt by dreamers of the past who realized their prayers had come true on the day of juneteenth.
I am as free as the sun while I am told to stay in the shadows like the moon but never have been so close to the stars which I cannot reach to soon.
I am you, I am you, and I am you over the years, tasting the same tears, conquering the same fears.
I swear we were made in the same image…I am…you…

LIFE
Life moves to its own beat,
travels its own path,
and drags you for a wild ride.
The only way to stay alive is to follow it’s trail and don’t hide…
My fingers move gripping the letters of life arranging them to tell the story of my immortality creating a moment in history forever… the future stands still unless we create it….

THE INSPIRATION TO MY POETRY

SAUL WILLIAMS…the inspiration to my mind evolving to its purest form. Young and afraid not knowing how to express my feelings without proper guidance…my eyes gazed upon a movie entitled… “SLAM” The story of a young Black American Male named Ray played by Saul Williams who goes through trials and errors while expressing his inner most thoughts through poetry and spoken word….POWERFUL…I thank you Saul for you have forever impacted my life…

Feelings of Life
Leave Me
Leave me and let me believe everything i thought about you was true. Leave me and be just as cruel to my heart as the others in the past have been. Leave me only my tears because you have ripped away my dignity and given me fears…or maybe…I should leave you.
Understand…we can split between the sun and I would forever walk the burning surface to find your heart once more…
YOU
This feeling I have for you…you the one who realized that a kiss was all that was needed to spread pain into my heart….when you knew what you wanted from the start….don’t make me…fall in love
Free
Lifting past the memories of struggle as they drop from my ankles letting the shackles of pain loose as I am set free.
Never forgetting the pain from those memories as they strengthen my mind for the future that has yet to come…
Leave me not happiness for you are what I hope keep treasured forever…..
Love
Love is the dream dreamt by countless minds,
Hoping one day they will wonder into the chapel.
Having another to whisper sweet melodies into awaiting ears or there in a moment’s time to catch a falling tear.
Making endless wishes come true, inspired by fairytales since time had begun..
Older and older as the years go by, shall you say lonely, I know not I….
Women
You are the inspiration to my creativity, the queens of my heart.
Making a way for all humanity, standing together never apart.
I appreciate your beauty,
I appreciate your pain,
I appreciate the the struggle, for men to maintain.
Without women… where would we as a people be?
Pain
How can you love me, and bring me so much pain.
How can you cherish my presence, but drive me insane.
Why are you hurting me, what is there to gain?
Why am I going through this, do I have myself to blame?
Do I need to change, do I need to check myself….
My life is moving in the fastest lane, I’m trying not to wreck myself…
I pray to God he brings peace to me, and keeps me from this painful mentality….
SHE
She is the one who makes me believe in dreams because what I see in her always deceives.
She was never real even though i can touch, figured I should give up as my heart can’t take this much…pain…She…is my pain…
But to her I send my best wishes, I’ll dream again of love and your luscious kisses….
WHY
Why must I constantly be judged for speaking my mind?
Why should I settle myself to believe there is nothing wrong in this world and sit blind? I refuse to follow the critiques of life stating we should forget the past and believe in the future when the future is based off of the past before it….
Why subject myself to such ignorance which is that of me living peacefully when others suffer daily..What have you done to make a difference…living a life just to live is not worth living…

RISE
Rise up from your slumber, peel back crusted eyelids to unveil your soul to the suns rays.
Rise so that you can face each second of a minute, every minute of the hour and every hour of the days to come.
Rise as you breathe Mother-Natures breath as it flows through every inch of your body inspiring your mind and encouraging new thoughts….have you raised?

I AM
I am you; I am the countless millions who represent billions of inspired thoughts from the trillions of images seen within each second of each hour.
I am the dreams dreamt by dreamers of the past who realized their prayers had come true on the day of juneteenth.
I am as free as the sun while I am told to stay in the shadows like the moon but never have been so close to the stars which I cannot reach to soon.
I am you, I am you, and I am you over the years, tasting the same tears, conquering the same fears.
I swear we were made in the same image…I am…you…